Feeling Overwhelmed

Hello Professor and classmates. I decided to write about what I am feeling today instead of posting a poem. I am feeling very overwhelmed. New job, school, the children (ages 16, 13 and 11), church and bills are driving me crazy lately. I know that God will not put on you more than you can bear but why do I feel so overwhelmed. I thnk God for my new job, for now, I am able to make ends meet. Although, I am working crazy hours throughout the day which causes me to be away from my children quite a bit. I haven't cooked a real home cooked meal in about a week now, because of my job. I even slipped on thoroughly completing my assignments from school. Thank God it is close to the end of the term because I have not been able to log on for the past week like I should and when I did, I rushed through what I was suppose to do. That is not like me. I feel so burdened down. I guess things could be worse, so why am I complaining. I also know that God does things for a reason so what is it that He is preparing me for? I don't like my new job very much, which is cleaning commercial buildings, churches, theaters, etc. although it does pay the bills. I do thank God for it so I am trying not to complain. My children are at each others throats consistantly lately. My 16yr old is a girl, ole brother! Girls can be a mess! My 13 and 11 year old are boys and it seems as though they conspire against my daughter all the time. HELP ME LORD! Well, I just wanted to vent a bit. Thanks for listening, I mean reading and please, pray for my strength!

DISTANT LOVE

When we met, my heart was ill.
Because it was wrinkled and shribbled, you knew exactly how I'd feel.
My heart was truely dead but you brought it to life.
It had been stabbed many times, and I still had the knife.
You came and made me your everything, your love, best friend and more.
I truely felt what love was like, even though I thought I'd love before.
You're everything I wanted, the perfect match for me.
I knew you were the one, cause I felt your love eternally.
I was so happy that you made me feel so alive.
The only thing that kept us apart, was that long two hour drive.
But now things seem to change, but is it for the worst or the best?
Either way my heart beats for you and it's coming from within my chest.
I'll always think that you were sent to me from the Almight God above.
You will forever and always be so dear to me, my special distant love.

MY SIDE

I never thought this day would come. I never thought I'd feel this way.
I never thought my very own flesh, would push me to going astray.

Sometimes I cry at night and ask, "Why do I have to live this life?"
But then I pray to God in hopes that everything will be alright.

There's nobody in my corner or nobody that's on my side.
Sometimes I feel there is no purpose and sometimes I want to die.

I'm all alone with no one there. I wish I could see Gods face.
Even when I go to church and pray, I feel I no longer have faith.

How come He doesn't answer me? I know He see and hear my cries.
At times I feel I should give up because no one is on my side.

RUNNING OUT THE DOOR

I think the devil is in me, and he's busting out with a rage,
because somethings stirring within me to go back to my old and evil ways.
At times I have these hateful thoughts that I never had before,
And everytime something goes bad, I see myself running back out the door.
But yet there's something that glows within and it's calling me by my name.
I hear this sweet and peaceful voice say, "Come my child, I will stop the pain".
I cry and I get up, to reclaim and gain the strength that I once had before.
So now I don't see myself running back out of Heaven's door.

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE

Your handsome face, your warm embrace, your gentle heart and touch,
Are just a few of the many reasons of why I need you so much.
With you its true, I'm never blue, you're all that I think of.
The things you do that pleases me is why I fell in love.
I know at times I start to whine and say unthoughful things,
But still I know that not a soul compares to the joy you bring.

Your words are wise when when you advise me of the ways of life.
So I'll take heed just please proceed to make me your darling wife.
Your're considerate, not illiterate, and cater to my every desire.
For all you do, I'm pleased with you, on your love I wish to retire.
I now it's sad when I get mad and react in a rage like I do.
Since I'm to blame, I choose to change, to keep a man in my life like you.

You took the time to explain those things that I didn't understand.
You're forgiving heart didn't let us part but kept us close at hand.
When times are tough and things get rough you still are there for me.
People although, may not think so but time will tell and they'll see.
I may think that you're wrong and don't have a clue, in some of the things that you do,
But baby just know, from my heart and my soul, that I'm madly in love with you.

I MISS YOU

I missed you while you were gone away.
I missed you more with each passing day.
I missed the nights you held me close,
But I missed your hugs and kissed the most.

I missed your presence around this place.
I missed the smile you put on my face.
I missed the way you make my heart shine,
But I really missed the warmth of your body against mine.

I missed you as each minute passed.
I missed the time I saw you last.
I missed your conversations at home,
but I really missed the fact that I wasn't alone.

I missed your touch against my skin.
I missed your little sneaky grin.
I missed the bull you put me through,
But most of all baby, I just missed you.

THE SWEET NAME OF JESUS

When I think of the sweet name of Jesus, I think of God's love for me.
How He sent His only begotten son, to save my soul eternally.
When I think of all He endured; the suffering, betrayal and pain,
I think of sacrifices made for me so my life would never be the same.
When I think of how they humg my Savior with nails in His feet and hands,
I think of the purpose to save us from evil, which had endureth throughout the land.
When I think of the crown of thorns, that was placed upon His head,
I think of the covenant God made with us, and the reasons His blood was shed.
When I think of how His head hung low on the cross before His death,
I think of the words, "I'll come again", which He stated before He left.
When I think of how they burried my Savior, I think of the destiny for my soul.
How He died to save us, through the promis in which our God upholds.
When I think of the precious blood of Jesus, I think of spiritual cleaning within.
I think of how he presented His blood to God to cover and blemish our sins.
When I think of the sweet name of Jesus, and how the covenant was sealed when He died,
I think of the power within His blood, that flowed from His head, chest and side.
Oh thank you Jesus, for the saacrifices you made to protect us and free our souls within.
We boldly praise your Holy name for your wondrous blood that protects us, that saves us, and frees us from our sins.